Friends~ have you heard about Emily Wierenga’s newest book, Atlas Girl, yet? I grabbed a copy of it and I cannot wait to begin reading. This post is part of the Atlas Girl Blog Tour which I am delighted to be a part of along with hundreds of inspiring bloggers. To learn more and join us, CLICK HERE!
Like Emily, I found myself disillusioned with life. I then discovered God alongside a dead cactus…
I tried to stifle the tears as I watched my parents drive off. What had I done?
I graduated from college and secured my first job; that’s what.
Earlier that week I said my goodbyes, loaded the car, and moved across state lines to New Mexico, the “Land of Enchantment.”
Gone was everything familiar to me. It was just my mini cactus, “Larry,” and me now. We would face my new life together.
Ironically, my first year in the “Land of Enchantment” stunk. Even Larry died. (It is possible to over water a cactus)
When a job opportunity opened up in Phoenix, Arizona, I jumped on it. I arrived in the “Valley of the Sun” and found new friends, the man of my dreams, and continued design “success.”
I had it all, yet all wasn’t enough.
At the height of my perceived awesomeness, God intervened. In the middle of the literal desert, He led me to a crossroad. I could sense God asking my heart: are you thirsty for me, or for the objects of your dreams? I started to suspect that the two would not perfectly intersect.
I was correct.
In the months that followed:
- The man of my dreams rejected my heart.
- The design job and money became meaningless.
- My mother was diagnosed with breast cancer.
I felt disillusioned.
Rejected.
Scared.
As my world seemingly shattered, God slowly constructed a fresh thirst for Him in my heart. I learned that God never promises prosperity, He promises His presence.
I was in a valley with the Son while living in the “Valley of the Sun.” God moved me away from what was familiar so I could become familiar with Him.
Presence over prosperity…
Since my time in that initial valley, the amazing Chad Steel did find me. This January marks our 7th year of wedded craziness and bliss.
My mother beat the doctor’s odds. She walked down the aisle at my wedding and held my hand as I gave birth to both of my children. On October 8, 2012, I watched her enter Heaven; achieving absolute victory over her cancer.
I said good-bye to the design world with its’ paint samples and pursued paintball wars, prom drama, and youth ministry instead. Currently I am a proud military wife (aka a moving guru) and stay at home momma. I know how to create beauty around my family, and I know how to pray beauty into the hearts of my family.
And my desire for a fancy office and a powerful corporate position is waning.
I had no idea that leaving the familiar and taking a chance on the unfamiliar would draw me closer to God- but it did, and it still does. God remains my constant in the chaos of change.
Presence over prosperity…
By the way, Chad and I are currently stationed in the “Land of Enchantment.” I am back to where I started. I think I shall buy another mini cactus and name him “Larry”…
Your turn to share:
Have you “discovered” God? If so, when and where did you encounter Him? Do share about your own journey in the comment section below. I would love to hear from you.
More on Atlas Girl~
httpv://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZirKrbreo9Q.
Emily T. Wierenga, award-winning journalist and author of 4 books, has released her first memoir, Atlas Girl: Finding Home in the Last Place I Thought to Look. They say the book is like “Girl Meets God” meets “Wild” meets “Eat, Pray, Love.” I say the book is inspiring. You can grab a copy here. Proceeds from the book go towards supporting the Lulu Tree.
*this post was adapted from my archives.
Beth says
The stories being told as part of Emily’s book tour are touching my heart deeply. I have not read her book yet. It’s on my list and with each post I read I feel the nudge to read soon. Just maybe it should be my weekend reading. I loved the opportunity to get to know your story more. How wonderful that God would bring you back to the “Land of Enchantment.” He blows my mind all the time with the ways He moves in our lives. Blessings to you, Traciy. xoxo
Tracy says
Beth~ Yes, I chuckle every time I tell someone I am back in the “Land of Enchantment” and back to where I started. I am a much different woman now- was blinded, but now I see! 🙂 Blessings to you as well.
Emily says
Hey! I’m stopping over from the blog tour. I love your post- “Presence over prosperity”, I love that. Thanks so much for sharing, beautiful post!
Tracy says
Thank you for stopping by and for your comment Emily!
t says
I could sense God asking my heart: are you thirsty for me, or for the objects of your dreams… this caught me, its so true. I’m forever questioning the motives of my dreams because i want them to be His will and plan, and not mine. thank you for sharing your journey and i look forward to the next post
Alison Lam says
Tracy, this post really hit my heart. I can relate! And thanks for Emily’s book link! Sounds like something I must read! Thanks!
Tracy says
Hi sweet friend. Yes, I definitely think you should check out Atlas Girl, and I hope all is going well 🙂
~Karrilee~ says
Hey there… popping in from Emily’s Blog Tour to say hello! I enjoyed reading your story here! So full of honesty and hope! Presence over Prosperity! I love that!
Tracy says
Thank you Teresa for your honesty. I am constantly checking my motives too. The heart can be deceitful (Jer. 17:9). So thankful for God’s patience and grace as I strive to bring Him glory. Blessings on you as you pursue God 🙂
Tracy says
Hi Karrilee~ I cannot wait to read all the other beautiful posts in the tour. I love hearing about the movement of God in the lives of His children 🙂 Thank you for stopping by One Degree! Will stop by your place as well…